Changes

A change is coming
Where will I land in this storm
I pray for myself

My boss just called and let me know that I will have to reapply for my job. I am struggling between terror at losing my job and a small bit of anxiety that all will be okay, that I am good at what I do and I will remain in my position.

Last week there was talk that I may have a title change and a pay raise, and now this. I don’t know what to think. Why do companies always do these things during the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays? There has been changes all over the structure of my place of employment all year and then months of everyone standing still and waiting for the other shoe to drop and now at this time of the year, the ones that be decide to jump.

I have so many emotions. I am so mad that this would even come up. I am terrified I will lose my job with this company. I am anxious I will be forced to go into another position. It will be a change no matter what happens. I will turn 50 this year, I thought I was through with big changes. I was set to just go to work and come home and go to work again until I retired. No big surprises like this.

It could turn out okay, it could turn out for the good, it could turn out completely screwed.

Emotions are sad and hurt this evening.

I may have to start really coloring outside the lines 😦
jackie.bzah

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Changes

Light From A Distant Star by Mary McGarry Morris

Light from a Distant StarLight from a Distant Star by Mary McGarry Morris

My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Nellie and her family live in a small town and are having financial problems. They have a rental to help ends meet and one of the tenants is murdered. Nellie is in the house at the time with her grandfather’s hired handyman who is working in the basement.
That is the bare bones of the story without spoiling what happens. But honestly there isn’t much to spoil. Nellie is the main character and the story is slow getting started, gets a bit of a punch when the murder happens and then sputters into a slow drag. I was so disappointed at the end of the book. Notice I said end of the book, not ending. After reading through all of the boring details of Nellie’s daily happenings after the murder, the book just runs out of words.
I had read a review where someone had compared Nellie to Scout from To Kill A Mockingbird. Possibly that is what the author is tryna (the most repetitive word in the book) do, but she is far from accomplishing that.
I wish half of the words could be taken out and an actual ending provided. There is a story in there somewhere.
And where did the title come from?? I hate books that have a title that doesn’t come from the story.

Keep coloring outside the lines,
jackie.bzah

Light From A Distant Star by Mary McGarry Morris